Janel's Blog!

There's another world inside of me
That you may never see
There are secrets in this life
That I can't hide
Somewhere in this darkness
There's a light that I can't find
May it's to far away
Or maybe I'm just blind

So hold me when I'm here
Right me when I'm wrong
Hold me when I'm scared
And love me when I'm gone
Everything I am
And everything in me
Wants to be the one
You wanted me to be
I'll never let you down
Even if I could
I'd give up everything
if only for your good
So hold me when I'm here
Right me when I'm wrong
Hold me when I'm scared
And love me when I'm gone

When your education xray
Cannot see under my skin
I won't tell you a damn thing
That I could not tell my friends
Roaming through this darkness
I'm alive but I'm alone
Part of me is fighting this
Part of me is gone

So hold me when I'm here
Right me when I'm wrong
Hold me when I'm scared
And love me when I'm gone

So yesterday was fun I guess. John and I went bowling after I went to mass for palm sunday. John did really well and so did I. I got a 108. 3 strikes. YEAH! I kept trying to remember all the bowling tips Hunter has told me and it turned out they worked. So, afterwards John, my mom, and I went to Petsmart to get a cat perch thingy. It took up the whole backseat! John and I had to sit in the front seat together squished. John got a bruise on this waist because of the seat belt holder. People kept looking at us, one black kid looked out the window as they passed and pointed and laughed at us. It was hilarious. Then we went through the drive threw at taco bell and the cashier lady laughed at us too. It was really fun. I got home, did homework, and then my mom made me rake the lawn. Jeez, who rakes their lawn? I've never heard of it before, but it sucked none the less. Then I talked to Hunter and I miss him so much. He forgot our anniversery and said sorry (7 months) wa who! It's ok w/e its not big like a year or something. Today I had a boring day at school. Came home did my English Essay and then I went tanning, went to the Pig twice, yeah just to see LS lol. John and I then went for like a mile run. I hadn't been running in forever since we don't have gym this year. Yeah so now I'm home. Hunter said he'll probably come home tomorrow and I'm sooo excited. I can't wait. He said he misses home and me. So here is a song for him that kinda fits the situation.

Late at night when all the world is sleeping
I stay up and think of you
And I wish on a star that somewhere you are
Thinking of me too
Cause I'm dreaming of you tonight
Till tomorrow I'll be holding you tight
And there's nowhere in the world I'd rather be
Than here in my room dreaming about you and me

Wonder if you ever see me
And I wonder if you know I'm there
If you looked in my eyes
Would you see what's inside
Would you even care?
I just wanna hold you close
But so far all I have a dreams of you
So I wait for the day
And the courage to say how much I love you
Yes I do!

I'll be dreaming of you tonight
Till tomorrow I'll be holding you tight
And there's nowhere in the world I'd rather be
Than here in my room dreaming about you and me

I can't stop dreaming of you
I can't stop dreaming
I can't stop dreaming of you

Late at night when all the world is sleeping
I stay up and think of you
And I still can't believe
That you came up to me and said "I love you"
I love you too!

Now I'm dreaming with you tonight
Till tomorrow and for all of my life
And there's nowhere in the world I'd rather be
Than here in my room dreaming of you endlessly

Dreaming of you tonight
Till tomorrow I'll be holding you tight
And there's nowhere in the world I'd rather be
Than here in my room
I'll be dreaming of you tonight
Endlessly
And I'll be holding you tight
Dreaming...with you...tonight! No tomorrow night lol

hey, I haven't written in here for a really long time. So, I'm really bored right now. I'm grounded cos I didn't go to karate this morning and slept instead. I miss Hunter, he's leaving today for a long trip up north with a bunch of his friends for like 5 days. I'll see him for a day and then I'm going up north to see my dad for easter next weekend, so it sucks. I'm going to miss him so much. School is boring too, I wish it was just over. I want summer. Ali, LS, and Dani, and I are probably going to go bowling tomorrow, that'll be fun. I think I'm going to my Aunt Lynn's house tonight. Oh what fun! lol. jk. So... what else... there is nothing else really new in my life. Oh, Hunter has a tournament in Green Bay not next weekend but the weekend after. I'm going up there with him and his mom. It'll be great fun to spend all weekend swimming and shopping and watching the tournament. I can't wait oh and then the last weekend in April is state! OMG i'm so excited for that too. LS, Dani, and I wanna go up early. We'll see I guess. see ya